(I feel trapped energy like being inside a rubber ball. The sides are flexible but there is no release.)What are you showing me Thomas? ‘My mind. I’m trapped, I cannot break free.’
What is in your mind that makes you feel this way? ‘Anger, frustration, so much hatred.’
What is the cause of these feelings? ‘Loneliness.’ (I feel sadness.)
Why did you feel alone? ‘I was alone. No one likes the weird kid. I saw the looks and heard their remarks about me.’
You didn’t give yourself enough time to find your people and grow to experience love. ‘Maybe not.’
Why would you want to kill President Trump? ‘He’s the king bully isn’t he.’
That’s what the media makes him out to be. If you attack or try to hurt him he lashes out. Isn’t that what you just did? You lashed out? ‘Yes.’
Where did you get the bomb in your car? ‘A friend.’
Who is this friend? ‘We started talking on a game chat.’
What game did you play? ‘Sniper.’
Were you good at it? ‘One of the top score holders. I wouldn’t have missed Trump either if he had not moved.’
Did you meet your new friend in person? ‘No. He said he was 19 though. My age, he listened to me. We would pretend to shoot famous people on the game. It was fun.’
How did you get the off-shore bank account? ‘That’s a longer story.’
I have time. ‘My friend and I were playing one day and he asked what it would take to play the game in real life. Then he said, “Let’s say, Trump.” That’s where it started. I thought, started to think how cool it would be to be a hired assassin. Who I was now was just a cover up for the real me. The me that had the power over whether they lived or died. I was done being the victim. Done being weak and unseen.’
How did this turn from pretend role playing into reality? ‘My friend said he made it happen. Fuck them all. You are clear to launch. He said there would be money waiting for me to start a new life where no-one knew me. He laid everything out perfectly. He told me how easy it would be because everyone else were just loser idiots. He said, “Man! You’re going to be a hero!” Except I wasn’t.’
Why do you think Trump turned his head just hit the right time to save his life? ‘I saw it.’
Saw what? ‘An angel.’
What did the angel do? ‘As soon as I fired I saw the angel in my scope, looking at me. Blue, piercing eyes. I could feel it.’
What did you feel? ‘Compassion. He was trying to protect me from the taking of a human life. Life is to be sacred.’
What angel was this? ‘Michael.’
Who do you think your friend was? ‘A player on the dark web.’
What does that mean? ‘There are always two teams. One is chaos and destruction. One is life in the light.’
So, you were essentially played? ‘Played, yes but I wanted to play. I was meant to play. Don’t you see, I thought I was playing for the dark but the light took over and changed everything.’
Is there anything else you wish to share Thomas? ‘The love and compassion I felt from Michael’s eyes is all I ever wanted. Love, kindness from others, it’s all I ever wanted.’
Do you have that now? ‘There is only love here.’
Where are you now? ‘I am resting. I am among the stars. I’m just here, watching everything go by. Planets, stars, satellites. There is so much to see up here. It’s quiet and peaceful. There’s no more mind to control and take over.’
Thank you Thomas, peace be with you. ‘Thank you I wish I would’ve known you. You are kind, thank you.’
Thank you Thomas. That is so moving. Thank you.
Channeled message from Thomas Matthew Crooks. He attempted to assassinate former President Donald Trump. Thomas did kill one and injured three audience members before a Secret Service Sniper killed him. He was 20 years old.