‘You’re hot. Ya, you heard me, you’re hot.’
You’re funny. What an entrance John! Join me for breakfast. What are you having? ‘Coffee. Smoke. Shit. In that order. I’ll wait for the greasy lunch.’
What should I ask you John? ‘How the fuck am I? I’m great. Totally fucking great.’
Where are you? ‘Space, man.’ (I hear the Twilight Zone music, Doodoo Doodoo Doodoo Doodoo.)
So many people miss you. You are still famous. Are you with others that are like you? ‘Like me, like what?’
Funny, raunchy, accidental drug overdose. Souls with similar stories? Like Chris Farley. ‘Chris, my bay, ya, we kick it.’
Janis Joplin? ‘Oh my God, oh my God, Janice! We love to make her laugh. That’s one righteous bitch!’
In a good way? ‘No one is cooler than Janice, like, no one.’
Sam Kinison? ‘Sometimes. The dude goes deep. Too deep.’
Like lower energy deep? ‘Yes.’
John Candy? ‘I want to be like John when I grow up. Dude be all chill and easy. Love the man.’
This is where I feel the shift in Johns energy. He begins to open up.
Richard Pryor? ‘That man went through some shit! You know he made it. The suffering. He made it man. He completed that life cycle. He’s in the masters class now.’
Is there anything you wish to share? ‘It ain’t that hard. We make it hard though. You know, it was great, hell of a ride. What the hell did I need to escape for? What’s so bad about dealing with your shit. You’re insecure? So what, almost everyone else is too. Man, oh man. I just didn’t get it. Could you imagine the life I would have had if I had just figured that shit out.’
I can. It’s sad to think of it like that. ‘Real sad. Get real people. Get out of your head. Like Chris says, get out of your ever lovin’ freakin’ mind!’
Is that your biggest regret? ‘My brother. I’m so sorry I hurt my baby brother. He looked up to me and I let him down. Big time let down. Not an easy letdown, a big, huge slam the fuck way down kind of hurt that I wish I could take back. I’m sorry baby bro. Really, really sorry. I love you man. I love you.’
I’m sure he’s forgiven you. ‘I know he has. I’m lucky for that.’
Does that forgiveness make a difference where you are? ‘Yes. It’s like every forgiveness is a brick of 5000 pounds. Jimmy forgave me and that 5000 pound brick fell from my chest.’
Thank you for sharing that with me. Does it bring you peace when you are able to talk about it with someone like me, a channel? ‘I’ll show you a channel. You can be my channel!’ (John gives a dirty boy laugh!)
Funny guy! ‘Yes. Yes it does bring peace. Who doesn’t want to be remembered and loved. It’s the love you know. The heart. It’s what makes the world go ’round. It is. Not lyin’.’
Loved the blues Brothers music. ‘You should see us jammin with Janice. Miss you Dan the Man, my big buddy. (He laughs.) He doesn’t like it when I call him big.’
Anything else before I go? ‘Get your head out of your ass people. Look around you. Go out of your way to build someone, anyone up with kindness, love and compassion. You don’t want to keep learning the same lessons over and over again. Figure that shit out now.’
I love your softer side, such a calm, sincere energy. (John laughs.) ‘I’ll show you my softer side! No, I know. I don’t know why it scared me so much to show it. I felt vulnerable I guess.’
What would you do now if you felt vulnerable? ‘It’s a normal human emotion that everyone else feels too. No one is ever alone in how they feel. What’s so bad about calling your buddy and saying hey man, I’m feeling blah, blah and blah instead of going for the eight ball.’
You’re right. We are here to build each other up. ‘Doesn’t get any simpler than that. Build each other way the fuck up.’
Thank you John. You’re fun, I would have liked to have known you. (He gives a sly smile.) ‘Not as much as I would have liked to of known you!’
Channeled message from John Belushi. Saturday Night Live cast member, comedian, actor, musician. He died of an accidental drug overdose at the age of 33. Hope you have cheeseburgers in heaven John…